You guys should know me well enough by now to know that I’m probably with no exaggeration the worst worrier known to man, seriously I worry/over think every possible situation weather it be something small and superficial like weather my make up will go well for a night out or bigger life events e.g where I’ll be in five years from now.
I can always remember at school I was forever getting myself in a state because I’d say yes to a trip, a presentation or some sort of speech and then end up spending night after sleepless night talking myself out of it and saying no at the very last minute. Teachers and people at school used to get so mad at me because at times it came across like I was just being a let down or trying to be difficult when really it was all just down to me being so nervous and worried that I’d mess up.
I always hate feeling like I’ve let myself and others down so this was like a vicious circle for me, on one hand I couldn’t go through with things as I’d make myself sick with worry but on the other hand missing out on valuable experiences while letting others down made me just as sick. One experience that always still to this day sticks in my head is when I was about 16 I got offered the opportunity to go to Canada for two weeks to represent my school in a schools council forum, I know it sounds crazy who else would turn down the chance to go to Canada with everything paid for right? but at time the time I hated being away from home and I’d told myself I wasn’t good enough to go.
I’d love to say that as I got older and left school it got better but sadly it never, I’ve lost count of the amount of amazing experiences and things that could’ve furthered my dreams I’ve said no to or missed out on all because I was too scared to pursue them. It’s only in the last year though that I’m honestly beginning to realise that if I keep letting fear and anxiety control me then I might miss out on some of the most amazing days and times of my life, I’d absolutely love to travel more and I kick myself everyday that I didn’t take the chance to visit Canada which is the main reason I’m writing this post.I don’t want you guys too look back on your life at missed opportunities with regret because yes life can be scary and we all have fears but we should never let them fears control our lives and how amazing they can be! so from now on I’m going to go out there (even if I am filled with anxiety) and grab life with both hands and you guys should too because life is for living! ❤
The title of this post is probably slightly misleading as it says positivity only, I don’t realistically for one minute think that any of us can go through life and be 100% sunshine and rainbows. We live in such a face paced world nowadays that it’s so easy to get dragged down by the daily grind of things, weather that be smaller issues like having a bad hair/make up day, getting up late or bigger things e.g work, bills or family struggles having a bad day from time to time is inevitable.
The truth is though that no matter how many struggles life throws at us and how hard it gets, only you are in control of your own happiness. Everyday when we wake up we have a choice weather to see the positives or focus on our problems and be negative, there is a quote that I love and it goes ‘Positive mind, Positive vibes, Positive life!’. Both good or bad vibes are infectious and I don’t know about you guys but I’d rather radiate and spread love and good vibes than be a negative person.
You guys will know from previous posts that I have suffered from depression for a huge part of my life so I completely understand that it’s not always easy but recently I’ve been trying to live by this quote. There are so many beautiful in this world that we so often overlook weather that be how beautiful the sunset is, how cute your baby niece/nephew are when they smile or how pretty the scenery around us is . I’ve truly began to realise now that you can’t live a positive and happy life if you keep being focused on the negatives or surround yourself with negative people. So if you have people around you who thrive off negativity you should lose them, if you see something you don’t like online just keep scrolling and when you wake up every morning promise yourself that you will try to see the beautiful positivity in that day.
You’re all beautiful, special and talented people who deserve the most positive, happy and amazing life so go out and spread that positivity wherever possible because life is too short to be negative or hurtful.
Hey guys, you’ll know from previous posts and if you follow me on other social media platforms that I absolutely love a quote! I’m all about positivity and try to motive people whenever I can so with that being said I’ve decided that I’m going to start my ‘Motivational Monday’ posts again.
So my first Motivational Monday post of this year will be one of loveliest quotes I read in 2015 ‘The ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones that do!’ I found this quote on one of the most positive days I’ve had in ages (I’ll explain more in my next post) this quote really made me smile! Growing up whenever I was asked what I wanted to do my answer would be ‘I just want to help people’. I know that to some people this probably sounds cheesy but it’s something that I truly mean’t. I’m the type of person that no matter what I’ve always said money and materialistic things wouldn’t make me happy but if I could look back at my life at the age of 80 and say I made even a small difference to the world then I’d be truly happy.
I can’t lie and say I’ve always been a super positive person because I definitely haven’t, when I was younger and people would laugh when I’d say “I want to change the world” I began to believe that they were right because I mean how could little me change the world? The older I get though the more I’m beginning to realise that everything happens for a reason and even the hardest of situations/life struggles can be turned into positives, which is a huge part of the reason why I started this blog. I wanted to turn my journey with Cerebral Palsy and depression into a positive by helping others and inspiring them to go out and chase their dreams whatever they might face in life.
Over the last few years since starting seemenotcp and speaking with lots of other amazing people in the blogging community I’ve realised that my once crazy thought of changing the world and changing lives can become a reality, not only for me but for you guys too!
So guys please believe me when I say no matter who you are or what life struggles you’ve faced. YOU can make a difference and YOU can change the world! Don’t let anybody ever make you feel like you can’t achieve incredible things in life! ❤
Firstly I’d just like to thank you all such much for your lovely, heartfelt comments, through my tough times they mean’t the world too me and really showed me how much blogging has brought so many wonderful people into my life.
I’m feeling much more positive and thought that this would be the perfect time to share this positivity with you guys and hopefully start your week off on a good footing, with my first Motivational Monday in a while.
The older I get and the more things I experience the more life lessons I learn, so when I saw this quote I couldn’t help but write a post about it. In a world where people will always have something too say regardless of how kind, well mannered or happy you try to be, it’s hard not to take on others opinions of you and let them drag you down.
I can definitely hand on heart say that the more people judge me, the more I’m starting to realise that their opinions or judgements of me really are nothing to do with me at all but more a reflection of them and how they feel about themselves.
I’m the type of person who maybe naively likes to believe that everybody is a good person deep down which is why I honestly do believe that if a person is trying to be hurtful or cruel towards you then it is definitely more to do with their own personal struggles or how they perceive themselves than it is too do with you or your abilities.
In such a fast paced world of the media, jobs, relationships and just life in general it’s so easy to get caught up in life and just plodding on, doing the same boring, meaningless tasks everyday without even realising that life is passing you by.
We’re all filled with hopes and dreams for our futures weather they be something small like a nice family holiday or if you are anything like me something a bit more dramatic like planning on changing the world but sadly following our dreams isn’t always easy as we normally have a huge list of them tasks everyone wishes they didn’t have to do but life would be in chaos without them e.g cleaning the house, food shop or working every hour to pay your bills.
So with the things I have mentioned above It’s so easy to get caught up and sort of forget your dreams, when I was in the deepest parts of my depression I was so stressed by life & hated the fact that everyday life was just passing me by. As I’m an all or nothing type of girl I sort of felt that I’d let myself down as I was 25 and still wasn’t exactly where I wanted too be.
Then one day I stumbled across this amazing quote..’Are you doing something today that will get you closer to tomorrow’s dream?’ as cheesy as this sounds this quote really changed my outlook and helped me realise that although I can’t make all my dreams happen in one day, I can make sure I get up everyday and do at least one small thing that will get me that little bit closer to my end dream, weather that be making a phone call, looking online, making notes or just simply getting up and facing the day ahead with a smile. So even if it’s something so small that may not seem important make sure that you do something each day that your future self will thank you for!
If you asked any of my friends about me they would probably say ‘she worries too much what people think & tries to please them no matter what’ and I’m not afraid to admit that in the past I’ve wasted so much of my time over analysing why people may not like me and trying to change their perceptions of me. Growing up and especially during my teenage years I was convinced that if someone didn’t like me or showed hatred towards me or what I was doing then it was because of something I’d done or said.
Slowly though as the years go by I’ve realised everybody will have haters, no matter who you are or what you are doing there will always be someone out there who will try and pull you down and hate on you. We live in a world sadly were a lot of people seem to strive on hating towards others, if you are rich, poor, pretty, successful, I mean even the most successful, powerful people on the planet have haters, you name it and people will find a reason why they dislike you!
Now though instead of worrying about why these people spread their hate or spending days on end trying to make them like me, I know feel for these people because the reason these people hate on others is not a reflection of you, it is a reflection of them because they’re jealous of how well you are doing and wish they could be as happy/successful as you are. So I just wanted to round this post up by saying next time you get hate towards you please forget the haters, they have no genuine reason for their hate so keep doing you because them haters will soon turn into lovers when they see how well you are doing!
Any of you guys who know me or who have followed me for a while will know that I’m a girl of many dreams but one of my biggest ambitions is to get into modelling, for years it’s been something I’ve never had the confidence to do but this week something in my mind set changed and I decided to take the plunge and registered my interest with a modelling agency! 😀 So a few days later having heard nothing back I just assumed it was unsuccessful but yesterday I received and amazingly exciting email saying that my application had been successful and I would now be put on their website, How exciting is that?!
So anyway this past week has been lovely and I’m so excited too see what the future holds but this has got me to thinking ‘why do we spend so much time in life putting things on hold?’ for me it has always been worry, nerves or just complete lack of confidence that has held me back and stopped me grabbing life with both hands but after receiving this email I began to think what if I never tried? I would be left with huge regret and disappointment in myself!
I know due to living hectic lives that a lot of us like myself are forever putting things off, I’m guilty of saying the infamous ‘I’ll do it later’ and if I’m honest that list of I’ll do it later’s just gets bigger and bigger. Obviously there are things that will always be put off, the washing, ironing & tidying up? but I just wanted to write this post to say that tomorrow isn’t always promised, so if you’ve got dreams, ambitions or just important tasks that really need doing then don’t wait another minute get out there and do them now.. You never know where they might end up leading you!!
‘Happiness begins with you’
What is happiness and how do we achieve it? A question we are all left asking more than once throughout life but the truth is who knows, what makes you happy may not be what I see as happiness, happiness will vary from person to person.
For some people happiness is found in materialistic things and possession’s weather that be having lots of money, a new car, a new wardrobe or the latest designer handbag but the truth is while all these things are fabulous and will definitely leave a smile on your face for a while, will they really bring you true happiness?
A lot of us spend our lives in the pursuit of happiness going out shopping, drinking, holidays or buying extravagant things but I truly believe that your happiness begins at home with YOU! I mean sure these things will give you a burst of happiness for a day, a week or maybe even a month but if someone was to take all that away and you were just left alone would YOU be truly happy?
i believe that happiness isn’t something you have to search for or chase it is something that can be found all around us in so many different ways weather that be in spending time with loved ones, a pretty view, having a nice cuppa, watching your favourite film and so much more.
Life is a beautiful thing that could bring us so much joy and happiness everyday if we just stop, take a step back and appreciate our lives for what they are. Stop looking for everything too be perfect and start seeing the perfect in everything!
‘No regrets in life just lessons learned’
I know more than most how hard it is too look back at life and not dwell on a huge bundle of regrets but I’m a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and this is true even when it comes to things we may regret.
As humans we seem to dwell a lot in life and wish we could change things weather that be a boyfriend, a car or a job but seriously just take a second out and answer me this ‘What does living with regrets really bring to the table?’
I’m guessing the answer was nothing at all and that is completely the right answer, regrets don’t bring you happiness, help you solve problems, help others, or even turn back time. In fact all they seem to do is hinder you from making better decisions for your future by clouding your mind with doubts from the past.
I’m not naive enough to think that by reading this post you will magically forget every regret you’ve ever had because that’s just not realistic, I like to think that in life everything that happens does so for a reason. So no matter what your regrets weather it be past relationships, spending money you don’t have, falling out with friends or not taking a chance, remember it isn’t a regret it is a lesson and it happened for a reason, you may not understand why right now but in time it will become clear.
One of the things I love most about our wonderful world is the diversity that is all around us, no matter who you are or where you are from no two people you meet will ever be the same. Too me that is incredible no one looks alike, acts alike, walks alike, talks alike or even thinks alike with this in mind it’s no wonder we live in a world full of debates and people trying to make their voice heard.
If you are anything like me then you are the type of person who will never stop fighting for what they believe is right but like I said everyone is different so very often I’ve been left standing alone debating about or fighting for things that others don’t seem to be to bothered about but another thing that becomes apparent as I mature is that even if I’m left standing alone it doesn’t mean that my fight is any less important than someone who has huge amount of people who agree with them. In fact if you look back in time some of the biggest changes to ever be made, were ones that involved just one brave, passionate, clever and amazing person who stood up and spoke up for what they believed in.
So the next time you have a belief or a passion that maybe others either don’t agree with or don’t support just remember these incredible people e.g Nelson Mandela, Rosa Parks and keep going fight for whatever it is you believe in and make the changes you want, regardless of what others think!
I’ve lost count of the amount of friends I’ve fallen out or disagreed because I didn’t back down, I stuck to my beliefs and went ahead following my heart but I can honestly saying that being hated for being me and being passionate means a lot more than having friends for life but knowing I am not being honest to myself and my morals!
So please guys remember ‘stand up and be counted even if it means standing alone’ ❤